“I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”
-Sylvia Plath
Indecision, Emotional avoidance, Distraction to avoid discomfort
Overview
Self-induced Ignorance
The truth is there if you wanted to acknowledge it. It’s a plain as the moon in the sky. Instead you preoccupy yourself with nonsense to avoid seeing it all together. While your intuition screams in a desolate place, you are too preoccupied with strategic distractions to see the very devil glaring you in the face.
Symbolism
A rocky sea meets a woman in the foreground of the photo. Seated n a granite bench, her eyes are obscured by a white blind fold. Both of her hands are occupied with a sword facing the sky, with her arms crossed before her in the shape of an X (Signifying her obvious rejection). Above her the moon is a crescent with both of its points facing at her head.
Meaning
Distraction to Avoid Discomfort
While it may seem like there’s a lot going on your life, it’s really all perception. Most of the things you’ve been taking on is to separate yourself from having to be faced with the truth. All day you stay busy and at night you burn the midnight oil, so you don’t have to think about what is to come.
Emotional Avoidance
There’s only so long you can act like the status-quo hasn’t changed. There may be a conversation waiting to be had that you’re avoiding. Something is telling you that something isn’t right, but you are ignoring it. Grief maybe seeking validation, but you won’t take a minute to hear it out. Stagnancy leads to tension, choose how you will approach this subject and surrender.
Indecision
In the smallest form the two of swords is your willing ignorance to avoid the mental upheaval reality will cause. You are ignoring your intuition, the tension or a conflict. You could be turning you back on someone or refusing to reconcile due to a battle with your own ego.
The Two of Swords Reversed
”Indecision brings its own punishment.”
— Publilius Syrus
Decision, forced truth, breakthrough, emotional walls lowering
Meaning
Decision
You’ve finally made the decision to look at the situation for what it is. There’s no more avoiding the harsh reality through meaningless mundane tasks. You are seeing the patterns, and hearing your intuition loud and clear. You finally looked at the gruesome scene for what it is.
Breakthrough
Eureka, you may not have found the holy grail but you found a solution to a major problem in your life. Instead of allowing something to unravel the tapestry you have so diligently woven for yourself, you cut the loose end and found a solution to anchoring it down.
Emotional Walls Lowering
They didn’t deserve anything but your unwavering blind faith in them, as they have never wronged you. Now, you are starting to see the damage your defensiveness has done to a personal endeavor. They weren’t the ones to wound you, but you made the wound their problem.
Forced Truth
This is not what not the ugliness you needed to be looking at. Due to the constant aversion to the truth you are finding your stuck standing toe to toe with a monster. If you’d paid him mind, you would have seen him stalking you for hours in your state.
You’d think with all your paranoia, terror and anxiety that you would be hyper vigilante. This was something pulled directly from under your feet when you were waiting and watching your skies fall. This could have been avoided.
Internal Conflict, Disassociation
There could be some internal conflict, which has affected your well-being causing you to disassociate from the situation. You have shell-shock; your insides feel hollow, echoing with the vibrations of a ringing gong.
